💜 Lust World 💜 A Dish Best Served After 125 Days of Quarantine
I’ve been plagued by lust my whole little life—from the early ages of Spice Girls and NSYNC posters on my wall—where I would kiss each of their lips before I would go to bed (bisexual since 1999). I used to pick a flower in my grandparents’ backyard and pluck each petal one by one, whispering “He loves me, he loves me not.” Since quarantine, where I can no longer do things that make me feel like an adult (drink in bars…), I have reverted back to my youth—writing in my journal, going for long walks, listening to music and researching the lyrics, and above all: lusting for love and long nights.
Lusting for the feeling you get when you walk into a dark bar with one red light, when you’ve already had three gins and you go to meet your best girl. She’s also a few (tequila pineapples) deep. You hug tight and squeal into each other’s ears that it’s going to be “a good night.” You’re swept away from bar to bar, dimly lit bathroom to dimly lit bathroom. You finally find a place to dance—everyone there is HORNY, the music is pretty good, the atmosphere: ripped vinyl couches, glitter, and humidity. You go up to the bartender, who already loves you because you’re drunk and you’re tipping too much; they pour you two shots “on the house.” You squeal again, take the shot, and the tequila drips down your lips and chin onto your mesh shirt, but it’s okay, baby! You dance some more—eyes closed, head tilted towards the ceiling, drink spilling everywhere.
You decide to call it a night at 3 a.m. and slip out from under a stranger’s sweaty arm and go to a diner. You hold hands from across the table and order a torta and a quesadilla. You take a long Uber home, planning your next night out where you can see and be seen, lust and (hope to be) lusted after—no touching involved! Maybe just a few friendly smooches on your best friend’s hands. And baby? That’s all you need!! Because for me? Lust is a dish best served after 125 days of quarantine.
Katie Joy is a podcast and radio show host. A lover of all things steamy, sexy, and cool. You can find her on Instagram here!Â
